Today has not been a good day at all for me. Seeing the Doctor and everything was hunky dory; I got my prescription and then went outside to walk to the bus station. Low and behold it started to rain! I had no coat or jacket so I got a bit wet.

At the bus station I bumped into an old Primary School friend and had a great chat with her. It was nice…ish. The shit we discussed made certain stuff rear its ugly head again, i.e. all the shit that went on at B.R.A. and almost sent me back into the depression I’d just come out of when I was 16.

Got into College and everything was going grand. My classes were pretty good but I soon became concerned at how unfazed I was at talking about child abuse, in particular sexual abuse.

The lunch I got was called Italian Beef and vaguely resembled a lasagne with curly pasta instead of lasagne sheets. It was quite bland and I couldn’t eat much of it. My period is painful and causing me to feel extremely drained and exhausted. It is also affecting my apetite, but the Doctor now has me on the Pill so hopefully that will help.

I found out today I am unable to get a bus pass as I am doing a Higher course. The College didn’t inform me of this and I had to query them about why I hadn’t got my bus pass yet. They did not apologise for not telling me this information so this put me in an even more pissy attitude.

My pain reared its excruciating head again as I was walking to the bus stop so that made my mood that much surlier. Waiting at the bus stop some weird, crazy woman started randomly talking to me and telling me all about her ex-boyfriend…no idea why. I got on the bus, went to the upper deck, went to sit down and bashed the crown of my head off the lights and air conditioning thing. It hurt but its sort of going now.

On top of all this I have found six more bruises that match the shape of my fingers, knuckles and palm, so thank you bad dreams for making me hit out in my sleep. Thank you period for disrupting my sleep with cramps. And thank you for whoevers grave I must have pissed on for me to have such a shitty assed day where all I want to do now is curl up into a ball under my duvet and tell the world to FUCK OFF!